Sunday, June 20, 2010

Don't cry..

Darkness comes, hovers us, hold me
tight and we’ll chase the light..
Come with me, never go coz time and
again you will fly..
Dance in the rain as we bathe in the
ponderous sun..
Dry with me tears which won’t cause
you to hold back and fly..

Away, we explore new horizon..
Away, we’ll find no other reason..
To live like a dream in the shadows,
to dent the crease coz you will be
here..

Caress the wind it’s calling you to
journey back the pathway of time..
Treasure the present, tomorrow it’s my
turn to fly..

Away, where we break from the
darkness..
Away, where the light fills the mazes..
The door to my heart yet unleashes..
The cry for you to come back home..

I am here.. Don’t cry..
We’ll bring back the reason coz then
you’ll try to move on..
We wake from the haze still bit blurry
but in each other’s arms…

I am here.. Drenched in tears..
Come to me.. Now and take me..

Away, where our happiness ceases..
Away.. where we won’t see each other..
Away.. where you’re crying to pieces..
Remember me coz i will be there..

Away, we explore new horizon..
Away, we’ll find no other reason..
To live like a dream in the shadows..
As i cry for you to come back home..

Away… Away… Away.. Don’t cry..



* this was our graduation song nung highschool. written by jan brianne astom and sung by me siyempre..hahha..i'll sing it some other time..

wisdom from pain

we cry and shed tears when we feel it. We get depressed and feel bad at times too. But this feeling does not only elicit those things that I said. In worst situation that feeling can even cause death. Deadly huh? It can even torture you little by little which is really hard to control at hindi mo rin matatake!!!

That feeling is pain. It is pain. It is defined as an unpleasant sensory and emotional experience associated with either actual or potential tissue damage. It can be somatic, visceral, superficial, vascular, referred, neuropathic, phantom, cancer, psychogenic or central. Marami no? Studying them one bye one can even give you pain..hahaha. Pero seriously, marami tlaga sila and siyempre lahat sila me kanya kanyang field sa kung anu man ang magkakaron ng pain. For example, somatic pain is pain that is elicited by skeletal muscles, ligaments and joints meanwhile visceral pain originates from organs and marami pang iba. Masakit talaga and siyempre para matolerate mo yun minsan hindi lang enough ang pagdepend sa processes na ginagawa ng body natin para gumaling ang pain. Sometimes, we have to consult doctors for the appropriate drug to take. These medicines are called analgesic. It inhibits pain so you can call it pain killers. There are a lot of drugs to choose sa analgesic nalang so believe me..ang hirap ng pharma!!! Analgesic can be subdivided into two kinds namely, opioid and non opioid. Opioid are even subdivided into three kinds but I won’ explain it further. It will only add to the pain I have hahaha.

Acetaminophen or popularly known Paracetamol here in the Philippines are only two from the many Analgesic drugs that are available. From those drugs makakapili pa kasi my different unique things pa na iooffer per drug. Gaya ng paracetamol.. pwede siyang pangtanggal ng pain at the same time for fever. Meron din namang iba pangpamanhid at siyempre marami pang iba..Pero haha..icucut ko na kasi hindi naman talga eto yung topic ko. Hindi gamut but pain though pain na hindi related sa as in mga clinical na sakit.

Pain can be from emotional too and its true. Minsan hindi lang sa malfunctioning ng mga organs natin. Minsan from our relationship to other people makakinflict parin ng pain. Like for example, when two people set apart from each other, pag nagbreak sila. Minsan mas gugustuhin mo pang makafeel ng pain na health related kesa sa pain from an intimate relationship.Minsan pain na galing sa away sa family, sa friends, sa school and sometimes pain sa community. Dahil kasi sa social responsibilities natin minsan kelangan isa una yung ikabubuti ng iba,, ganun din naman sa friend relationship. Mahirap yun harapin and minsan nga cause tlaga yung ng pagpapakamatay ng mga tao. Yung mga taong sangkot sa mga krimen, panloloko and minsan rin sa mga scandal di ba? Dahil hindi nila matake yung pain, gusto na nilang kitilin ang buhay nila para matapos na lahat. Minsan din, naiisip ko n asana may gamot nalang sa mga ganung klaseng pain, para kung heartbroken ka sa isang tablet lang o capsule hindi mo nay un mararamdaman. Para siguro kahit ilang oras lang free ka from pain. Sana nga may gamot na ganoon.

At times din naiisip ko dahil parang sobra kong iniimmerse yung sarili ko from my environment mabilis akong makaramdam ng pain. I easily shed tears pag may nakikita akong lola or lola sa jeep na parang hirap na hirap na pero sige parin sa pagpunta fron one place to another para sa work nila. Naiiyak din ako kung may nakikita akong mga kuting sa kalsada na walang matuluyan. Kanina nga nauulanan na siya. I wanted to help pero stupid me wala parin akong nagawa. I easily cry kahit simpleng bagay lang ata. Crying lady nga tawag nina dolly sakin kasi kung manuud kami sobrang iyak na ako sa gilid kahit simple lang yung story. Hahaha..ewan ko ba kung bakit ako ganun. Parang sobrang sensitive ako sa mgabagay bagay na mabilis mag soften yung puso ko. Alam ko it’s good to have a heart like mine kasi sensitive ako sa mga feeling ng nasa paligid ko, I understand better, nakakrelate ako better and I can easily adapt and caution my myself depending from the situation. Pero sometimes gusto kong lagi nalang naactivate ang A fiber ko kasi ang hirap ng laging may dinadamdam at dinadala. Minsan sa dami nun hirap na akong magbalance. Hindi rin kasi pwedeng idala yung problem nay un sa skul na dapat sa bahay lang. Minsan din parang gusto kong magtake ng propofol paralahat talaga hindi ko maramdaman at hindi ako maging aware. Sana pwede ang mga anesthetics sa everyday living hahaha..

Pero siyempre kung iisipin mo, hindi rin magandang my gamot palagi. Kasi kung may ganoong gamot hindi rin naman masosolve yung pain afterwards matapos na yung duration ng gamot. At kung may anesthetic man o mga analgesic man na gamot para sa mga nabanggit ko di parang self centered narin tayo kasi hindi na tayo nakakefeel ng pain. Kung lahat ng tao may gamot na ganun di kahit pala magpatayan na tayu at magkasakitan parang wala lang kasi wala talga tayong mararamdaman. Sabi nga ni sir Gonzales pain is a nice thing though for most siyempre hindi tlaga. Pero without pain pano mo mararamdaman yung harmful para sayo? Without pain how will you know that you are about to let your self be impaired? Without pain paano mo malalaman na kelngan mo ng ilayo yung sarili mo sa isang bagay? And in a subjective way, how will you let yourself grow without pain?

Ang galing no? kanina ko lang narealize..kasi lagi akong nagrereklamo pero I should be thankful that I can still feel pain. Pain man from school, family, sa bahay , from friends and more. Kasi with those pain, I can be a better person, mas magiging strong ako sa pag face ng problems na bound for me. With those pain mas makakahugot ka ng inspiration to pursue you dreams, to protect you family, to succeed in school, to be a better friend and to be worthy enough for God.

Life is full of pain, totoo. Pero I think if you look on the brighter side, if you just adapt to the pain, be strong to face it and to be affirmative on the way of facing it, to be resourceful and if you just think and realize na hindi lang yun para sa sarili mo but for all the people who are important to you and for all people who are living kasi whatever you do magbebenefit naman ang lahat, the pain will be manageable. Sabi nga ni sir, meditation can be a drug narin kasi nga sa CNS naman lahat nakaconnect diba and with the way of thinking and analyzing pwede kang gumaling. It depends talga sa outlook mo, how you understand the pain and how will you react on it. Kelangan talga full of wisdom ka. Kaya becoming positive I think can be healthy talga.

Painful noh? pero it can also be not right?

secret

okay..so i never heard about this book until today..i read it on the newspaper..i was caught easily and i felt the need to post it somehow hahaha..

what do you like in life? what are the things you want to achieve? what are the things you wish you have? what are the things you need and would even die to do anything just to have it? want to know the secret? worry no more! the secret of success is just within you..it's already in you body, soul, self..just try to internalize and you'll get it.. i think i did already..so if you want it too.. let me just try to help you..read the following with heart and mind together..

  • There is nothing impossible and unattainable so long as you believe in it. if you think it, imagine it- it is possible
  • law of attraction
  • learn to trust yourself
  • command the universe and believe it will yield.
  • dont be afraid to feel hopeful.think of the things you want and focus .
  • believing will do many things in your life
  • doubt not; doubtful thoughts will only delay the delivery of things you want
  • trust your self that you can do it and believe in your heart that you deserve it and the universe will deliver
  • look at your life and feel thankful for everything that you have
  • act with love and respect
  • accept your strenghts and weaknesses and work with them
  • always act
  • never let your self be left alone wallowing in self doubt
  • stay with yourself all the time, dream the biggest dreams, believe in them with all your heart, act towards tthen and the unvierse will work things out for you
  • and lastly, act as if blessings- your wish, hope and dream- are already coming. Show the universe you are ready to receive them.
- nadine honeychile m. bello

those are the words of wisdom i read first thing in the morning and believe me tinamaan ako.. sabi nga God will provide the things we need and the things we should have pero it's up to us parin kung anung gagawin natin from it. nasa tin na kung gagawa tayu ng positive things from it or babaliwain natin.. sabi nga ni nadine sa phil. star..dati daw dahil naniniwala siya na mapupunta sayu anu man ang gusto mo kung destined sayo yun..she never tried to fight back or at least showed some effort whenever she wants something. she said, " why waste all my energy when the universe will still decide who gets what and who doesn't"? kaya she lived each day doing as little work as she could because she believed destiny would take care of everything. until the strong current of life took her. waters crashed her and she was broken into pieces. why? because she never tried to fight what she wants..umaasa nalng siya sa langit..kung anu man ang ibigay sa kanya..until she realized that it is time she work things out..that she has to do something with her life. she decided to pick her bones and figured out how she will put it back to its original form. and she said that up to this day, she is still swimming, with her head proudly popping above the surface.

it's very inspiring for me..haha..she is now very proud that she is fighting despite with the many troubles and problems that is bound for her. sabi niya alam na niya kung sino ang makakatulong sa kanya- her self.. kasi kahit na the universe is all powerful, hindi naman yun ang nagdedecide for everything..it is just a strong force created to be of service to teh real masters..and tayu yun..tayu naman talaga ang mag dedecide kung anu gusto nating mangyari..it's up to us if we have the drive or we just let the waters to crush as too.. walang impossible sa mundo as long as you give your whole self on anything..

naalala ko tuloy a friend.. sabi kasi niya she always try her best..ginagawa naman niya lahat pero bakit hindi parin daw successful..now, maybe.. i already know the answer..nagkulang kasi siya sa trust..she always doubts..and sabi nga sa book..you always have to act..your action must match your wants..minsan kasi si she has short patience..maybe she has a reason for it maybe from experience but i believe in waiting parin until the time comes..eto example..from the newspaper ulit..a woman wanted a perfect partner. She thought about how he would be in detail..and she believed he will come. She was waiting for a few months and nothing happened until she realize she was not making her life ready for what she is asking for. She started preparing things, like parking her car on "her" side of garage. She cleared out some space from her closet and set aside "his" side of closet. She then started sleeping on "her" side of bed insted of sleeping in the middle like she normally would. In a month or so, she finally-believe it or not- met her "perfect" partner in a resto and they are now happily married. gets? so maybe that was the reason..siguro at the back of my friends mind my fear, doubt parin on what she really wants in life. she is scared.. and she always says that.. she still doesnt have the enough strenght to fight..lagi niyang ina under estimate ang sarili niya na hindi naman dapat because she has what it takes eh.. lagi niyang sinasabing useless siya..nakakahiya siya..etc. maybe that was the lacking part..she just maybe needs to pick up her self first and fix it gain..she has to believe in herself..believe that she can do anything kasi she is capable..i know it kasi im her friend..i may not know her completely but i know her strenghts and weaknesses somehow.. that's maybe the reason why she was not given the chance to pursue what she wanted because of that..kasi siyempre she needs to be strong when the new wave will come..lalo na kung high tide o tsunami yun.. she is not yet prepared so kelangan niyang munang magstep back and think..pero it doesnt mean naman na she will not have it. she will..but in time pag ready na siya totally..mahirap ang hindi mag doubt ako nga rin nag kakamali..pero tama nga naman yung wisdom na natutunan ko today..it's up to us parin tlga.. just learn to trust talga

i was thinking and maybe the reason why i am still here is because some of the things/wisdom i read was already on my sytem..i trust myself though hindi totally parin hahaha.. i try to minimize the doubt..as much as possible i always limit it..lagi kong pinipigilan..and i always act and have been prepared.. actually last sem ko lng yun narealize..i've been focusing and emersing my self on the possible work that i will have in the future..nailagay ko na sa isip ko na i'll be always at servive with people..that i will be needed that i will always have to help even within 24 hrs. naisiksik ko na sa utak ko na i will have to set aside my feelings, my personal choices in life because i have to prioritize my patients and other people first before my self..nakadecide na ako on what will i do and what will i have in the future..dahil i want to be a doctor..rineready ko na yung self ko na i have to study again for another 4-5 years..i have to be away with my family..i have to set aside my other dreams..kelangan kong isantabi muna yung iba.. actually dati..nabwibwisit ako na lagi nlng akong maagang gumigising na laging kulang tulog pero grabe nung nag college ako..nadecide ko na na everyday ganun na talga yung mangyayari..and i wont have the power to change it kasi yun na tlga foever ang magiging routine ko..so i always wake up early na hindi na nabwibwisit..alam ko nang 24/7 i need to wake up very early and i believe my system have absorbed it kasi kahit walang pasok nagigising na ako ng maaga..and im not tired of it..im even happy..mas focused na ako ngayun..i now know my priorities and alam ko na yung mga sacrifices na kelangan kong gawin and i give up..like watching tv, updating my multiply..hindi na ako everyday nag nenet kasi i know i have to focus on some other things aside from those..hindi na ako lumalabas at nagstay sa skul ng late kasi i have to control my time..i dont own my time kasi hindi ko siya pwedeng palitan..hindi ako pwedeng yung kung anu anu nalng ang gagawin ko kasi nakadikta na kung anu gagawin ko eh..i just need to manage my time and enjoy every single moment with it..mapa pharma man yan..nutri o ncm..haha..hai i always love writing my thoughts its as if i am replenished again and in full control again with my life..hopefully the energy will not subside..haha.. im not totally as in todong todo rin kasi naman focused..sometimes i make mistakes pero i work it out naman..i make it up to it na i need to work harder.. haha..we always have mistakes pero we can minimize it if we want dba? we can be better as long as want..we can have all the things in this world as long as we want..as long as we have the determination, patient, discipline, faith in God, trust in your self..

sana makatulong din to at makainspire gaya ng pag inspire ni nadine and rhonda sakin..let us all..pick our broken self..and make it a better one..lets be prepared and be guided. whatever is going on in our mind is what we are attracting.. law of attraction i apply..haha

and sabi nga sa..ask as if the blessings- your every wish, hope and dream- are already coming..show them you are ready..aja!

let's be prepared with good grades and the blue and white uniform..without doubt, fear and hesitations and surely we'll achieve it..AJA!!!

now..have you figured out the secret? haha..aja!

Friday, June 18, 2010

For the Love of my Country




It was June 12, 2010 and i was with my college friends at Eastwood City. We were waiting for the most awaited celebration of Independence day. There will be fireworks and singing, then suddenly the sky was filled with colorful fireworks. Suddenly, i felt different seeing my friends with me in gay, standing tall at the ground and having all the things i needed in life just enough to survive. On that moment of my life i found answers i was looking for for days and that's what I'm gonna share today.

I grew up at a town called Cabugao in Ilocos Sur with dad and grand mom. My mom was abroad for work and my two sisters were studying in Manila for College. Even though my family was not completely physical with me, distance was not a problem although emotionally I badly missed them. I was born with a family who's hearts are very pure and loving. We were known at our town so i guess i received lots of love from all. Plus, i was the youngest in our family that's why all our relatives were all eyes in me as i grew up.


when i was a kid i felt blessed on the things i was a able to receive. Ability to sing, intelligence, kind heart and a happy behavior that made my childhood days close to perfect if not perfect.i guess, i got my singing prowess at my moms side. I still remember since i started schooling on a school were my grandmothers are the boss, i got the chance to expose my talents and since then i was able to improve it and showcase them in every program. I started performing when i was 3 and it continued till i got high school. My grandparent's were also teachers and it must have been the root of my intelligence. My parent's are very lovely too, that i believe i got inherited from them my ability to be with friends with all. i was, i believe a good kid that i seldom get fights with my friends. They say I'm very kind hearted and considerate for almost everything. The blood that i have is the reason for all the things I have and I am today.

In my journey in life, i have met a lot of people mostly Filipino's and they have managed to catch my heart. They were my strength and happiness when I'm out from home. I feel like they are my second family. We share different kinds of commonalities. Our love for food, clothes, music, entertainments and not to mention boys. I am so lucky for having them always at my side and honestly i can tell that they really helped me a lot on not only my problems but my life holistically. I'm grateful, they are Filipinos because all we know, Filipinos have great personalities and i found all those with them.



Schooling was also one the best thing that happened in my life. With it, i was able get smarter everyday. All my teachers were superb in different ways. They have different personalities but all of them have a unique touch that made them straight to my heart. I mean for some people, studying is boring and a waste of time. i also think that way before but because my teachers since pre school were very industrious and loving to all their students i was able to understand the treasures behind it. From then, i started to love sitting on my chairs while lectures are being done. i look forward to days where i will get to enter on my favorite teachers class. What i really like from them is not only that they share knowledge with us, but they share us wisdom too that makes me inspire a lot. i have learned a lot life experience because of them. Now, I'm a fourth year nursing student at St.Lukes College of Nursing, Trinity University of Asia and my teachers helped me to realize my dream. I mean, i wasn't into nursing before but as i started listening to wonders of human body everyday i found the best place for me to grow up. My school helped me to reach out for my dreams and in the future achieve my personal legend.


I believe not being born here in the Philippines and not being a Filipino would make it possible to achieve, meet, have, and acquire all the things i have now. That's the answer i was looking for. Could there be other reason why i am proud to be and love being a Filipino? i guess none. My family, friends, teachers, the blood running to me and all the Filipino characteristics i got surely swept it all! I AM VERY PROUD TO BE A FILIPINO!




Saturday, February 13, 2010

homily for the day..




today's a very special day for three reasons. First, it's chinese new year.Secondly, it is valentine's day=( and thirdly it's my lola's burial.

i went to mass with L and i tried my best not to be late this time so i can hear the homily well. one of our responsibilities as children of God is to spread the good news to other people. well, because i'm not that vocally spreading the good news because of certain instances that is hard for me to overcome. so, to compensate my sins, i have planned to write down every homily i have heard.

last sunday was supposed to be the first but because i was late and wasn't able to hear it i postponed writing one.

so here it goes..you can have so many things to ponder with it..

* i wanted to give complement to the priest who celebrated the mass a while ago. he really is great in terms of speaking to the public with so much humor and intelligence.

He started asking what is special for this day. People responded and said it's valentines and new year. Then he asked, " Who are the one's who are loving sincerely here".. then people started to raise their hands. He sad it was nice to know that many people raised their hands. Then he asked why do people go to mass every sunday. He went near to people and ask the same question. One said because it was ordered by God then the second said because we need to say Thank you to God, its rest day and it's the only day to celebrate with God.

He said going to mass and seeing many people around the church is a positive sign. He said when people tries to wake up early for sunday, comes to church even with so many things to work that is left at home and so on..means only one thing. They have FAITH on God. May pananampalataya ang bawat taong nasa loob ng bahay ng Panginoong Diyos. He said there we are like the trees on the first reading. We are the tree that needs water(GOD) enable to live. But there's still two kinds of tree's the one that is not receiving water will not bloom and later will die and the other one is beside the river which continuously receiving water from it. He said having faith means totally waiting to everything you want to receive. He said God gives everything you asked it's only the matter of time that will tell when will you get it. if you waited long, there's nothing to worry about because whatever happens God will never let you down. If other people easily gives up then it means the faith is questionable. i mean God will always do things for us to grow. He will give everything we want provided its the right one and it's for the good not only for the one who asked it but for other people around who will be affected. i thought about it for awhile and i really believe its right..maybe it's the reason why im lucky too. i've telling that one to a friend but this friend does not think about it as a good one. she said she's tired and so on that she wants to have new life. of course i cannot answer all my friend's question because i too sometimes questions and create mistakes. But because Fr. said that we have to be grateful when we have problems because it only means God is testing our faith, i guess i can answer my friend's question now.



i've been having a great faith to God. i know how to wait and leave things to God. but its not because i don't trust Him sometimes that i get depressed sometimes. God helps us all the time but not everything is done be Him. We are a team together with Him so it means if He works, we also have a part to do. God has been good to me for my 19 years of existence but i think i haven't prove something for my self. He creates way to make my life easier but because i have different point of view sometimes things are so easy to get but i still create mistakes. but whatever it is that may happen i always make it to the point to tell God that he doesn't need to treat me like a baby. i mean im old enough now to work on things. i didn't grew for nothing so if there are things that i don't deserve i tell Him not to give it to me. sO i'm certain that everything i have now is the things that i really deserve..although sometimes..humihingi ako ng bonus..haha=)

The gospel said that those who are crying now will laugh..the one's laughing now will have its time to cry..those who are hungry will me fed and those who are enjoying much food will suffer hunger. there are so many things that was said and this are just the few things i remembered..based on my understanding..this only means life can be up and life can be down sometimes.. its a fact that every one experiences once in a while. but just like what Fr. said earlier..what ever happens one should fight for his right. his right to have a faith. i mean not every thing in this world can be achieved in a snap. there are things that needs a lot of time until you get it. you need to suffer and experienve a lot of hardships to attain it and that's the nature of life that makes me alive always. i mean i'm not telling im sooo happy if a get loads of problems in life but then what's there to cry from? to question from? when the problem is there already. facing it will solve it.so instead of trying to ask God for making you're life easy without any problems..entertain..say, "Let's get it on!" HAHA..i always say that.. i always to Him that i'm ready to face all the way to Him. but always ask forgiveness and understand ..forgiveness that i may nag again and understanding that for awhile i will be able to realize it and fight.

He made us ponder by asking.. why do we need to question God when we have problems? why don't we wait and have faith? why do we really have to question? God knows everything and He only brings us good news. trust and faith will answer all problems but God is not alone on the journey..He need your help, our help that's why one should team up with Him to achieve success.



Tuesday, February 9, 2010

till we meet again


there will come a day that I, too will die. i hope we'll meet again and when that time comes i'll love and care for you even more. this is not goodbye because someday i'll follow you. it doesn't mean your now too far away from me but think that you became closer to me. God will never let us down. i hope you will take a rest now and leave very problem you still have in this world. the ladder to the sky will always be there. wait for me and i'll be there when time tells that i need to take the steps.

never forget me.retain all good memories that we have, we'll add more until we meet again..

N.I.C.E


They say i have neurosyphillis in stage one..

Do i really act like that? i feel awkward whenever they get to talk on it. i feel embarassed at time too..it's my nature to act like that but i'm not like that all the time. i also have hidden side that is immoral that comes out only not once in a blue moon but not too often too. picky lang..

im not that nice people..reflect on it!

HA

I knew this day won't turn out right but i hope i could find a way to at least cope up.

My head is full of things that is STAT to be considered. Problems, emotions and requirements are mixed up all to together i don't know which to begin with. i was in control this morning but i guess because i also have limitations, my mind gave up. I think my mind is on its way to atrophy.

i don't know what/who/which is the culprit of my sudden change in behavior. As i sat down next to the driver, it feels like i was just a minute person. i felt like i was so hopeless, unlucky and all. i got down to the van, sat together with my duty mates at heaven and i just wanted to lie down and be on a peaceful place alone. Just to end my weird feeling, i tried to be jolly, ate chocolate ice cream just to increase my happy hormone but it's insufficient. i guess, the sky even felt my sadness, He gave me time to take a rest.

God conspired to let me reflect my mistakes. My patients awhile back went home and had a surgery which mean i wont have any work to do. i did my nurses notes and that's it.

The span of out duty gave me time to think but it was never enough.Until now, im clueless.. My heart is so heavy and my eyes are about to sink. i hope a sleep would cure it all and for just one sleep i'll be back on my old self.

i hope this HA will vanish. i hope You'll be happy again..

parallel life


You're there, I'm here
How are we gonna suppose to meet?
We're too close to each other
Standing in the same ground

I kept on running and running
Trying to keep up
But you're too fast
How can we meet?

I wish i could go beyond the line
Be next to you and smile
Unfortunately, rules doesn't even permit
Life can be really unfair at times

Time heals all pain they say
Only time can tell when will you stop bleeding
But when will it gonna stop?
Is it until, i lost all blood and die?

You will never get to meet me
I will never get to meet you
It's a painful situation
We can never change

You're line A
I'm line B
We're like parallel lines
Lines that will never intersect

Lines that will never ever meet..