HA

I knew this day won't turn out right but i hope i could find a way to at least cope up.

My head is full of things that is STAT to be considered. Problems, emotions and requirements are mixed up all to together i don't know which to begin with. i was in control this morning but i guess because i also have limitations, my mind gave up. I think my mind is on its way to atrophy.

i don't know what/who/which is the culprit of my sudden change in behavior. As i sat down next to the driver, it feels like i was just a minute person. i felt like i was so hopeless, unlucky and all. i got down to the van, sat together with my duty mates at heaven and i just wanted to lie down and be on a peaceful place alone. Just to end my weird feeling, i tried to be jolly, ate chocolate ice cream just to increase my happy hormone but it's insufficient. i guess, the sky even felt my sadness, He gave me time to take a rest.

God conspired to let me reflect my mistakes. My patients awhile back went home and had a surgery which mean i wont have any work to do. i did my nurses notes and that's it.

The span of out duty gave me time to think but it was never enough.Until now, im clueless.. My heart is so heavy and my eyes are about to sink. i hope a sleep would cure it all and for just one sleep i'll be back on my old self.

i hope this HA will vanish. i hope You'll be happy again..