Saturday, February 13, 2010

homily for the day..




today's a very special day for three reasons. First, it's chinese new year.Secondly, it is valentine's day=( and thirdly it's my lola's burial.

i went to mass with L and i tried my best not to be late this time so i can hear the homily well. one of our responsibilities as children of God is to spread the good news to other people. well, because i'm not that vocally spreading the good news because of certain instances that is hard for me to overcome. so, to compensate my sins, i have planned to write down every homily i have heard.

last sunday was supposed to be the first but because i was late and wasn't able to hear it i postponed writing one.

so here it goes..you can have so many things to ponder with it..

* i wanted to give complement to the priest who celebrated the mass a while ago. he really is great in terms of speaking to the public with so much humor and intelligence.

He started asking what is special for this day. People responded and said it's valentines and new year. Then he asked, " Who are the one's who are loving sincerely here".. then people started to raise their hands. He sad it was nice to know that many people raised their hands. Then he asked why do people go to mass every sunday. He went near to people and ask the same question. One said because it was ordered by God then the second said because we need to say Thank you to God, its rest day and it's the only day to celebrate with God.

He said going to mass and seeing many people around the church is a positive sign. He said when people tries to wake up early for sunday, comes to church even with so many things to work that is left at home and so on..means only one thing. They have FAITH on God. May pananampalataya ang bawat taong nasa loob ng bahay ng Panginoong Diyos. He said there we are like the trees on the first reading. We are the tree that needs water(GOD) enable to live. But there's still two kinds of tree's the one that is not receiving water will not bloom and later will die and the other one is beside the river which continuously receiving water from it. He said having faith means totally waiting to everything you want to receive. He said God gives everything you asked it's only the matter of time that will tell when will you get it. if you waited long, there's nothing to worry about because whatever happens God will never let you down. If other people easily gives up then it means the faith is questionable. i mean God will always do things for us to grow. He will give everything we want provided its the right one and it's for the good not only for the one who asked it but for other people around who will be affected. i thought about it for awhile and i really believe its right..maybe it's the reason why im lucky too. i've telling that one to a friend but this friend does not think about it as a good one. she said she's tired and so on that she wants to have new life. of course i cannot answer all my friend's question because i too sometimes questions and create mistakes. But because Fr. said that we have to be grateful when we have problems because it only means God is testing our faith, i guess i can answer my friend's question now.



i've been having a great faith to God. i know how to wait and leave things to God. but its not because i don't trust Him sometimes that i get depressed sometimes. God helps us all the time but not everything is done be Him. We are a team together with Him so it means if He works, we also have a part to do. God has been good to me for my 19 years of existence but i think i haven't prove something for my self. He creates way to make my life easier but because i have different point of view sometimes things are so easy to get but i still create mistakes. but whatever it is that may happen i always make it to the point to tell God that he doesn't need to treat me like a baby. i mean im old enough now to work on things. i didn't grew for nothing so if there are things that i don't deserve i tell Him not to give it to me. sO i'm certain that everything i have now is the things that i really deserve..although sometimes..humihingi ako ng bonus..haha=)

The gospel said that those who are crying now will laugh..the one's laughing now will have its time to cry..those who are hungry will me fed and those who are enjoying much food will suffer hunger. there are so many things that was said and this are just the few things i remembered..based on my understanding..this only means life can be up and life can be down sometimes.. its a fact that every one experiences once in a while. but just like what Fr. said earlier..what ever happens one should fight for his right. his right to have a faith. i mean not every thing in this world can be achieved in a snap. there are things that needs a lot of time until you get it. you need to suffer and experienve a lot of hardships to attain it and that's the nature of life that makes me alive always. i mean i'm not telling im sooo happy if a get loads of problems in life but then what's there to cry from? to question from? when the problem is there already. facing it will solve it.so instead of trying to ask God for making you're life easy without any problems..entertain..say, "Let's get it on!" HAHA..i always say that.. i always to Him that i'm ready to face all the way to Him. but always ask forgiveness and understand ..forgiveness that i may nag again and understanding that for awhile i will be able to realize it and fight.

He made us ponder by asking.. why do we need to question God when we have problems? why don't we wait and have faith? why do we really have to question? God knows everything and He only brings us good news. trust and faith will answer all problems but God is not alone on the journey..He need your help, our help that's why one should team up with Him to achieve success.



Tuesday, February 9, 2010

till we meet again


there will come a day that I, too will die. i hope we'll meet again and when that time comes i'll love and care for you even more. this is not goodbye because someday i'll follow you. it doesn't mean your now too far away from me but think that you became closer to me. God will never let us down. i hope you will take a rest now and leave very problem you still have in this world. the ladder to the sky will always be there. wait for me and i'll be there when time tells that i need to take the steps.

never forget me.retain all good memories that we have, we'll add more until we meet again..

N.I.C.E


They say i have neurosyphillis in stage one..

Do i really act like that? i feel awkward whenever they get to talk on it. i feel embarassed at time too..it's my nature to act like that but i'm not like that all the time. i also have hidden side that is immoral that comes out only not once in a blue moon but not too often too. picky lang..

im not that nice people..reflect on it!

HA

I knew this day won't turn out right but i hope i could find a way to at least cope up.

My head is full of things that is STAT to be considered. Problems, emotions and requirements are mixed up all to together i don't know which to begin with. i was in control this morning but i guess because i also have limitations, my mind gave up. I think my mind is on its way to atrophy.

i don't know what/who/which is the culprit of my sudden change in behavior. As i sat down next to the driver, it feels like i was just a minute person. i felt like i was so hopeless, unlucky and all. i got down to the van, sat together with my duty mates at heaven and i just wanted to lie down and be on a peaceful place alone. Just to end my weird feeling, i tried to be jolly, ate chocolate ice cream just to increase my happy hormone but it's insufficient. i guess, the sky even felt my sadness, He gave me time to take a rest.

God conspired to let me reflect my mistakes. My patients awhile back went home and had a surgery which mean i wont have any work to do. i did my nurses notes and that's it.

The span of out duty gave me time to think but it was never enough.Until now, im clueless.. My heart is so heavy and my eyes are about to sink. i hope a sleep would cure it all and for just one sleep i'll be back on my old self.

i hope this HA will vanish. i hope You'll be happy again..

parallel life


You're there, I'm here
How are we gonna suppose to meet?
We're too close to each other
Standing in the same ground

I kept on running and running
Trying to keep up
But you're too fast
How can we meet?

I wish i could go beyond the line
Be next to you and smile
Unfortunately, rules doesn't even permit
Life can be really unfair at times

Time heals all pain they say
Only time can tell when will you stop bleeding
But when will it gonna stop?
Is it until, i lost all blood and die?

You will never get to meet me
I will never get to meet you
It's a painful situation
We can never change

You're line A
I'm line B
We're like parallel lines
Lines that will never intersect

Lines that will never ever meet..