My Dilemma

Here's my dilemma

One half of me wants you
And the other half wants forget
My my my dilemma
From the moment I met you
And I just can't get you out of my head
And I tell myself to run from you
But I found myself attracted to my dilemma
My dilemma
It's you, it's you

Now i' doomed. Its like choosing between the one i love and my best friend. Making decisions have been my biggest problem!! Because i particularly inspect every tiny aspect of every decision at the end it gets me ti nowhere.

i'm actually afraid to go out to my shell but im trying to do it this past days. im trying to change myself for the better but it seems im on my limitation and im afraid to decide again.


i met new friends and they kept me entertained. They are my road buddies for we have traveled together looking for hospitals. I guess, friends can't really be together forever. i mean, in the future we will have our own path to take. in the future, we wont be holding on to each hands but i know we will still be contact.

now it seems we are about to end the happiness of being together and actually face the future we have. we can't rely on each other forever. We have to get out and try to be independent for once.

i think im having a seperation anxiety now that im really having dilemma on what to do, where to go, how am i going to make a good decision.

a friend said that i should choose where i am happy at but still i need to consider that i wont hurt anyone. but it seems that if not about to hurt anyone, im going to hurt myself. my wings are ready to spread but i cant just spread it out wide.

im on a dilemma and i don't know what to do. i need to decide so as to inform people and actually let us start preparing.

oh, Lord please help me to decide!!!