Deleting heart files

I therefore conclude That we can't be together and that I want to close what i feel and delete everything that I said before. Period.

Ayaaw ko na seeerrrr.

Second night

I was all excited for spending the first night with you. I was so kilig that we might have a chemistry or something but we didn't. It's not that we are not compatible but I think I'm still far from where you are. Hindi na kita mahabol.


Now the second night.

Wala pang 12mn anlayo mo na!!! Anubey! Natulog aagad!!!! Past 1am na ata kyung nakita kita. Sleeping Beauty on two sofas!!!! Rar. You are cute. Your are so adorable in your sleeping position. Again, can I sleep beside you?! Hahaha rar!

Hay. What a second day. Everybody is sound asleep but I can't sleep! Hindu ako maantok Antok!!!

I'm so alone!! Haha whathe! HMp!!!

Drops of blood

I did cut myself. Yes, I cut across my index finger right on the it's fold! And what had cut it? An ampule.

I have been good opening ampules at our Rle days when I was in college. I have a strong hand and I cut then
Easily. Before I use my own hands with the help of my white uniform specially if we don't have the cutter in the ward. But my history of good openings got caught up last night.

We had a patient with acute gastritis and we were about to admit her when
She backed out and preferred to
Go home instead. We prepared the papers fast but we ended up cutting them to serve as scratch paper!!

The doctor ordered medicines to be given TIV. Went to help my senior. She can't open the other one so I offered my help. I was confident I can open it what I'm scared of is I might crush the whole ampule so I asked how much does it cost. Then I used the cover of a syringe. Ready, set, go!! Tada~ it's open but when I'm about to hand the medicine, I saw drops of blood on the table! Oh no!! Oh yes!!! I cut my finger!!! I immediately went to the wash area to wash my finger. I thought it was just an abrasion and then I started to feel the sting! It was so painful and shockingly bleeds fast! The bleeding doesn't stop and I was able to use 4 cotton balls and 3 2x2 gauze to stop the bleeding!

Yes, I was so stupid! I created another mistake and it's my second day of duty!! Oh crap!!! I'm do embarrassed to what had happened and to what have I done. Babo!!!!

I'm thankful for the staff for being so caring to me. Of course I know they're mad but I'm grateful for what they did to me.

I'm sorry for being such a mess!!! I'll try my best to work hard and grow up!!
Please be careful in opening Meds in ampules. The medicines might be needed stat but still you need to protect yourself first.

Now, I'm suffering because I get a hard time using my right hand. It's so painful kahit konting sagi Lang! Rar!!!


Please be careful next time, Jo!!!! Fighting!!!

The Moon Embracing the Sun

I was actually hooked to Wild Romance first because of lee dong wook then my cousin downloaded TMETS and the rest was history.i didn't finish WR completely. I have the whole 16 episodes but I skipped some scenes and fast forwarded some episodes too.
But thankfully, my decision of prioritizing TMETS was a good idea. I got to love the drama so much I have watched the earlier episodes nonstop.

FYI: I don't like repeating drama Except for those that really touch me like nodame and heavenly forest, princess l hours and Scent of a woman.


Earlier episodes got me stuck up thinking why they had that drama title. I was so impatient unto what does it concern with the moon and sun. Then when I finally understood the meaning behind it, I have found it very romantic! I have appreciated before Heartstrings because the title was really perfect For the drama. Two people playing string instruments fell in love. Then came the Sun which means the King and The moon that is the Kings wife. Up in the sky the sun and moon have always been together. No matter how far they where they still have stayed on the same sky. No matter what happens the loyalty of the Sun was with the Moon. Helping her had light so they could stop darkness in our world.

On TMETS both the sun and moon loves each other. Their loyalty with each other was so strong than even death can't break it. In here the Sun wasn't the only one supporting. As the title says, the moon was the one embracing. It means that the Moon have always offer herself to protect te Sun. She has suffered so much, have lost a big part of her but still his love for the moon was unending. the moon knows that her life may endanger if she continues to love the Sun but still because they know they love each other, they have been bravely fighting for their love. From then on, I have appreciated the moon in the sky. I mean I have love watching the sky but my eyes sees only the stars and I have forgotten that a moon is also present.
And so every night I'll always look up at my window and searching If I can have a glance with the moon. I have not realize this before but actually looking into the moon is really romantic for me.

Because I was addicted to TMETS, I have bought a necklace with a moon with it. For me it's the moon, sun and the star. I have loved it the moment I laid my eyes on them and so I have treasured the necklace so much. Everytime I use it, I feel like im so lucky because I know every girl wants to meet his Sun but with it it feels like my Sun is with me always.

Im really moved at Hwon and Yeon woo's lovestory. It's proof that when love strikes on two people, if they destined for each other whatever happens, they will meet again and fall in love.

----- for continuation.----- im so sleepy! I don't know if what I'm writing is

The Sun has only one partner and it's the moon and they are inseparable.

SMILE ;)

Smile is a big thing. It defines you. It describes you as good person and it helps you to keep going even if you're suffering. Today, I kept on smiling. I smile even though I'm confused. I keep on smiling even if at the back of my Mind, my thoughts are clashing. I can't help but smile because you are there. Darn it! I kept on smiling and i'm still smiling until now whenever I remember you. :)

Today, I started to attend North Caloocan Doctors Hospital. I don't know why but I had only almost 4 hours of sleep but the moment I woke up my body was so "gaan". Usually when I wake up so early my body heat too heavy that I have to drag myself out of bed or snooze again so I can go back to sleep. But this morning, my kind wanted me to get up and I was like forcing myself I go back to sleep. It's so funny.

I took a hot shower. I didn't even force myself to move fast. I took my time. And I had my morning clean smooth.

Jeepneys are on strike and commonwealth was like a ghost town.i went out 5am and the highways are almost empty! Luckily, u spotted my jeep and went to the hospital.

My watch is 10-15 minutes advance but I always forget about it. It was exactly 6am when I stepped out of the jeep. I ran fast to the hospital. I looked for air Lawrence and logged at the 3rd floor.

Went down to ER. Yes, I was assigned to ER again. And worst scenario came and I found out that I may not rotate on other areas!!! Say what?! Oh yes, ill be mastering emergency nursing! T T it's not that I hate it. But I'm still poor on my pharma skills, I get shock attacks most of the times and I'm slow. That's it. I'm not afraid of blood nor resuscitation because I want them but it's just that I'm not yet prepared! Oh well, I guess I'll be trained as an ER nurse. I'll try my best to grow an learn more things so that I'll be more capable and skilled the next time around. Ha! Wait for my transformation! T T

Oh well, I'm not that shocked when I found out that I may not rotate its because I had a hint that I may be assigned there.

Then, I don't know why but I kept in smiling afterwards. I get so kilig and I'm still kinikilig until now. Again, if you are the law that said ill stay on ER for three months then I'll stay. I'll stay whatever circumstances that may come. I can get shouted and all but I'll try my best to never give up and stay with you 6x a week ;)

Yay!

I am so kinikilig! Your not flawless like my others but you sure passed every characteristics left. There mere fact that im close to you everyday makes me contented and happy about my decision. It's not only you but the 50% reason why I stayed is because of you and the other half is because I'll get more experience there than my previous volunteer experience.

Yay! Yay! I am so kinikilig! ;) I wish we could grow closer and so you'll be my kuya!! ;) I'm not dreaming of a relationship here that's intimate. I just want a kuya that I can talk and joke on to.


My second volunteer experience fighting!!!

Ma'am amai, sir roly and sir law, please take good care of me!! And please teach me as much as you could!!

My first day high ended well an I'm contented :)) I can stay 3 months or more.

The Past I Want to Remember

To the men I loved before. Yuck! Haha

I don't know why this came out from my mind but I want to write them down so this would remind me in the future :)

I don't know if this is right but this is what I feel today. Comparing two people who actually made a big impact on my life, I think now I know who's better.

Girls love guys who cares for them. But sometimes girls makes wrong calculation and I think I did too. Infatuation makes everything unbalance if you don't know how to weigh things and just follow your heart.

I think because I was with him closer and because we were in the same group, I gave my heart to him easily. And in return, I had let go of one person who actually made my life crazily happy.Haha

I don't know why did I realize it this late and we are far from each other already. I don't why memories came and I remember how stupid and happy I am before with him. He was the first one who took me on a church ad I remember my knees were shaking and I didn't let him touch my hand too while singing 'our father '. He makes me my assignment and come to our house secretly hahaha.

I just miss him. I think if we would be friends again, he could really be my bestfriend. He knows me well and he allows me to do things I want without being mad.

Ah, past is past but I miss my past ;)

Date with the Sky

After arriving from Singapore, I drowned myself to work and wasn't even able to blog my travel. From time to time I write on my iPod but since I love my work better, I always leave my paper unfinished. But now that my beloved work has reached its ending, I don't have any reasons to prolong this blog. I also love writing my experiences that's why its also a must to write them down because this would entail my life story. And the next chapter of my life starts....

It's my first time going abroad, riding on a plane. Butterflies clash on my tummy. I was palpitating. I was so nervous and the same time excited.

I was hold at the immigration. I was so scared. I was already scared riding in a plane and worst scenario came and I was afraid they won't allow me to ride on a plane. Ironic. Finally, the immigration person allowed me and I went in.

For the first time I had troubles on my tummy. I swear on my whole life it was the first time I experienced it or maybe since my memory can remember.

Then, when I was already on the plane, I was so excited for its take off that at the end I was left hanging on my expectation!!! The plane took off so long we were strolling inside the departure area because a plane is on its landing. It felt like I was on a bus. Then finally, I experience some ear troubles which is just fine. I was even experimenting waiting up to when is my limit. Haha my ears didn't hurt. And then the plane finally soars up at the sky and I was so high! The feeling was so amazing! At then I said to myself that i love flying. I love it when the plane starts to turn on the side and I get to see the sea and the land below me. I was not scared at all. It was such an amazing experience.



It was past 5pm I think when I we departed so when we arrived at Singapore it was all dark already and the city lights where dominating. I love watching lights and it's no joke that you can see best lights up in the sky. The moment I laid my eyes on my new country, I had a guessed that the country is so peaceful. Everything was in order. It was so clean and as I entered Changi airport my theory got proven. This country is so amazing and I would really love to come back again more often :))

I arrived at our hotel -our cute, wonderful hotel. I wanted to jump on top of our bed but I was shy. Haha we had a whole wall mirror which is very amazing. We had an LCD tv hanging on the wall. The room was cold and I love it! We fixed our things and immediately walked at Bugis area. As expected, the streets are so clean, people are disciplined and they don't look at you head to foot :) you can wear whatever you like and they don't eye you. When you cross the street, you push a certain button on a street light and you get to walk in pedestrian without a worry that cars would pass by and hit you. The first mall I was able to enter is the Bugis junction. We arrived past 9pm so most of the resto are closing and some are jampacked so we decided to buy food at Mcdo.

My first day. We woke up late haha! The room was so cold and I wasn't able to realize it was already lunch time. We ate our spicy corned tuna and my nori then off we went to jurong. Our target there was to shop at the stationary island and we end up hopping to some anik anik shops too. Haha we enjoyed so much we forgot that we have to go the SS4 merchandise.We ate our lunch at din tai fung and I had my soupy steamed buns :)) Mashta!

Then we went to Singapore indoor stadium late hahaha. The lines for the merchandise was shocking and so with the merch items that were mostly sold out. So we decided to just walk around and take pictures. We bid goodbye and went to another stop.

Up next was Esplanade and some malls I forgot their names hahaha. And I got stuck up to a shoe shop rubi :) I find it easy to shop there. I don't know but maybe because with the small numbers on items compared to the prices here. I mean 1S$ is 35php, so you won't actually think the item is expensive. We went to a shop that sells official merchandise of movies. They sell official posters, toys and more.

Then we walk to Marina Bay Sands.I know it's far but I really enjoyed walking there. We passed by a man made field floating on the water and I even tasted the $1 famous icecream!!!

We reached the mall and it was amazingly huge and of course items are really expensive. I got to see LV shop and just the structure of the shop is really --wow!!! We picked up my cousin's ring and we ate out. Yes, we ate at Applebees, another mall. I think we went to 2 two malls before settling on applebees :) after dinner we went to orchard malls and ate abs bought an expensive necklace at Tiffany's. It was really expensive!!! Then we went to Clarke quay for a night out :) then my first day in Sg ended so well :)))

Day two, we decided to stay at the hotel and wait for SS4 but my aunt came to fetch me and she toured me around Bugis mall, again. Haha I decided which place to go and I wanted not to go farther than our area because we need to go at the concert early.

SS4 concert started!!! Rar their name defines their group! They are truly super, although not all of them are juniors anymore hahaha. The concert lasted in about 4 hours?! And they're energy was incomparable! The show was really amazing and I enjoyed it si much I easily went to bed when we got home to hotel haha. After the concert, we went to ate abs' home and for the first time I entered a Singaporean house :) it was an apartment type condo-ish. We ate dinner there and had some chats.

Day came and it's my last shot in Singapore! T T I wanted to stay longer and I really meant for good hahaha. I fell in love in the city and I want to lie there in the future. :))

We went to vivo city and rode in the cable car to sentosa. It was so amazing as to i love heights! Haha I love being on top and watch the beautiful earth below. We played luge!!! Looked around a bit ad because it was raining we decided to set on the mall rather. Oh, we toured around with the train too. I wasn't able to see the songs of te sea but it was just fine.

We ate lunch at marshe and it was a blast!! Rar, the food is so delicious and the store is very unique! It was like picking up raw foods in the farm, hand it out to chefs and they cook it! It was like dampa type resto but in marshe, they cook meats, salad, pizza and more.

Lastly, we went to 4 malls again before heading home. Bought some pasalubongs to relative ad myself and we went back to the hotel. We arrange our luggage, called a cab and we went to Changi airport.

Our taxi driver was so friendly and at the same time very talkative! Haha he had so many stories and he was so funny! Then we arrived at the airport. We checked in aloud luggage, went in for a last minute shop and had our dinner! We had the famouse Singaporean steamed chicken in a rice.it was just a typical chicken in a rice but it was steamed and it's a must to eat one when going to Singapore, my cousin said.while walking to our waiting area, I saw a big bear and I immediately posed to take a picture :))

Then we entered the plane and got seated. I was looking forward to watching the sky and the city lights again at the same time sad for going home here in the Philippines.

I was so blessed I or seated beside the city hunter man. Haha joke! Ate manta , was like Minho with the mask! We ate merienda again as the rest was history. My eyes were glued on my windows and I enjoyed every moment that I can watch in it.

So long Singapore and I'll be back again soon! Next time lets have a blast of tour again! Thank you for giving the the best vacation ever! Thank you for Super Junior and your great place!!

When we arrived past 12am of march21, kuya topher came to fetch her bride at the airport. We arrived home at 2am? And I still went searching on the Internet and I think I went to sleep past 3am already. I can't contain my happiness that day and t the same time in longing for Singapore. Haha

My vacation was so great that every single moment is sill fresh on my mind until now. I am so grateful to my family, specially ate manta for giving me the opportunity to travel abroad. FYI: ate manta handled my expenses- all my expenses and it was all for free. She's really amazing right? I am so blessed because of her. :)) thank you ate manta! I love you very much!! Your the best!!!

What had made me love this country?
1. Transportation is really accessible! I was able to ride all lines of their MRT. I was able to ride their double decker bus! Rode on a cable car :)

2. I love their malls!!!

3. Citizens are really nice. They are really friendly!

4. You'll be safe here~ haha try are very disciplined. Their waiting area on train stations even have gates so no one will fall at the rail. My favorite station was circle line!

5. Everything is clean and organized. You can enjoy even at their parks! They have so many places for you to visit!

My overall verdict is ������������

It's not complete five stars because is till have so many places left to visit since we had little time left. But believe me even with my short stay, I have enjoyed every single moment I had with Singapore. Their county is worth the visit! I wish I can come back soon!

My travel was like being on cloud nine. It was so amazing and heaven and that's why I called it date with the sky ;)

I'll come back Singapore!!!!