I can't remember any happy moments in my life alone when I was a toddler. As in I can't remember my playtime with my sisters even with my parents. What I can only remember is playing with my childhood bestfriend Mark. It's as if I was born into this world and we are already playmates. Stories before our playtime together is a blurr.
I had my still in the record long time crush for 6 years! Can you imagine that?! Of well that's true. He taught me how to love and breaks my heart in a healthy way naman. He is also a Mark but not my childhood bestfriend. He was my first kiss! Dang it, but he stole it! I never gave a permission! We were the talk of our school back then. I was walking with my bestfriend Alyssa, we're hand in hand then suddenly people eye me. On my mind I was like ' what the? What's your problem?' and the moment I turn my head to look for Alyssa, his lips dampened into my cheeck. It was a crazy experience because everyone in the quadrangle cheered. It came to the point where his brother came to talk to me. My teachers are pairing us up and all. I admit I don't like him before because I was so young and I never had that in mind. Then came 2nd grade, I'm the muse and I need a partner to escort me. I was given a chance to choose from my crush and the best looking man on my class. Afraid that my secret will be out, i chose Kevin from Mark. I guess that's the worst decision I made!! Down to 3rd grade, he always fights for me. When I got into an accident and nobody wants to help me, he did. I guess I was too harsh on him he decided to left me when we were in 5th grade. He had crushes on my girlfriends. From jinky to Nicole to Alyssa and Francess. Well I can't blame him because my group back then ruled our school. Nobody wants to mess up with us! But still he was still there taking a peek on my doings. I remember I sang on a program in school and all the time my eyes are on him. I think it was 'pangako' by regime Velasquez. Siguro if I said yes to him before, he would have been my first boyfriend and I ll make it to the point that wears still together until now. Mark is a very crazy boy but he is hardworking. He is sweet and I know he know how to take good care of me. Now, I think he is married .. Haha
Then I was torn between two lovers, kent and Carlo. I never expected to fall for Carlo and I strongly. Annoy believe he was my first boyfriend. We were seatmates and he loved my friend jinky. I guess I was so tomboy before I really play with boys! I mean I can really do the boy play literarily. I guess it's because we almost had a kiss for nth times in the lips because we always bump into each other that our feelings started to grow. He said he loved me bee cause of my singing but I don't know. Then came a higher batch suitor. He patiently waited for me years but I cut all ties with him when I was in 2nd year highschool. Carlo went to America leaving me crying, broken into pieces. Well, I can't remember that but my cousin tells me I was like that. I never thought of Carlo as my guy because I never wanted a younger guy but I had him. My sisters love kent by my friends wanted Carlo. I was in a big dilemma questioning who my heart tells me to love. Then out of the blue when a had a phone call from Carlo, I asked him to break up with me. That was the biggest stupid decision I did in my whole life! I guess I was stupidly in love with kent. But I regret it! But I had no choice because dad destroyed the sim her mother's know. So we never had a communication. Then my sistes said he called to them asking if I can open my sim so we can talk but I never did it ata. Maybe that's why he gave up on me and he started to look for another girls. I felt bad that time too that's why I broke Kent's heart too and I never had a relationship since then. My heart feels sorry for every mess I did. Then at 4th year Carlo left a message on friendster and I found out that he had different girlfriends already. That was painful. I cried. I resented my self for being so stupid. I have been celebrating our monthsary everytime.
Then I had a crush on Barry and that helped me to move on and think on different people. But I think I only liked him so I can actually forget my heartache. The usual bitch act, I text him, I say to the world I like him.
Then on 4th year I fell for another guy. He is Rey-an. I never knew if it was real but he courted me in text way. He was the clown of our batch and I actually never realized he'd like me? Oh well, I'm not even actually sure if I got the situation right. It started on 3rd year. I said no so he moved on but neither did I know Ill fall! Haha I was so stupid again I can laugh at everything I did. The ending was he courted other girls and I was left behind keeping all my feelings behind.
I'm now college! I remember I had a crush on my dance troupe mate Mack, my neighbor Patrick, sir gelo, sir Gonzales and sir simo. But it was so fast in a blink of an eye it was gone. Except for sir gelo and sir simo. Haha sir gelo was my 3rd year crush! He interviewed me when I was about to be a junior. He was so kind and smart! Then sir simo, my perfect duet! I loved him cause he is so funny and a real good singer :) who wouldn't fall everyone he sings?! Aww, I forgot I had a crush on a Amaranth! He is Vinson! Dang, I stalked him at multiply! He is a swimmer and his body is so yummy!! Ooh, I had a crush on Simon too. That was when I was a freshman going to sophomore. He plays the guitar so well and he is a total geek. That's all.
Then I had a crush on Luther!!! He is so gwapo I never knew he is a batch mate until I saw him on oour INREP!
Now my heart bared it all. Those were the guys who manages to steal my heart from me. Haha now I'm left to my Korean boys again.
I guessing started falling into pieces when I broke my heart withCarlo. And lately I was regretting I let him go. But life has so much to offer I better pick up myself and create the new me. Move on and lock heart.
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